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Time

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 21:47:15 GMT

Often times I find myself in conversations with people about time. Time travel ends up being the ultimate focus, and in-variably it gets to the point, what would you go back and change. I usually take the nothing stance. In fact, I dont remember a time when I said I would go back and change anything. Ohh I am sure, when i was younger, I would have done it. Now however, I have gotten older, and I realise that we would not be the people we are today without everything that happened up till now to shape us.

There are sad events, like the death of a loved one, or the loss of a favored pet. Some people however say they would go back and not enter the army, or do better in school, not take that job, say yes to this person, never date that person.... so on and so forth. Again however, everythign that happened to you makes you who you are. If that loved one didnt die, where they going to suffer? The pet died, I admit that is sad, and I would wish to not have anyone go through that, but instead of focusing on the sadness, focus on the happiness you where given. Had I not joined the army, I would not have had the life experiences that led me up to this conversation, and put me in the mindset I am in today. The people I have met, friends I have made and lost. Every job I have worked has made me a better worker, has taught me some skill that today I am happy to know. Even working at Hardees taught me something. That was the first time I was close to a gay man as a friend, and realised that yes, I can be friends with someone who is gay. You might be confused as to why that would have been an issue, but it goes back to how I was raised. My dad was very prejudiced, and I was raised in a very small, very conservative town. I was afraid that upbringing would cause me to feel the same way, and I sincerely felt then, still do now, that everyone has the right to choose thier own lifestyle. Until we are confronted face to face with an issue however, we can never know how we will react. Every person I ever dated taught me somethign new about love, and women.

So, I have never really wanted to change anything. I have thought about it over and over, and even the bad things I wouldnt change.....

Until now.

There is one thing I would change in my life if I could.

Still alive.

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 22:11:53 GMT

I am still here. In Germany again.

I know its been forever since I have written. But I dont really know what to write about.

I will think of something, and write something profound within a week.

Yes I will.

Now to think about what to write.

Death and Ressurrection

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 13:57:35 GMT

Then shall thy brain be dumb, and thy heart beat no
more, and all thy life shall go from thee; and thou shalt be
cast out upon the midden, and the birds of the air shall feast
upon thy flesh, and thy bones shall whiten in the sun.
Then shall the winds gather themselves together, and
bear thee up as it were a little heap of dust in a sheet that
hath four corners, and they shall give it unto the guardians of
the abyss.

On the 21st of July, 2007 at midnight GMT, Br. NHKY MN (Clint to some)
shuffled off this mortal coil into the great abyss. He was an
imperfect soul to be sure, but he had his moments.

Hear me, ye people of sighing!
The sorrows of pain and regret
Are left to the dead and the dying,
The folk that not know me as yet.

Worry not however, as ADTh BKYO has seen fit to bring him back
to us. Clint is no longer the man many of you knew before. He
retains the name given to him for use by those who would not
understand the change he has gone through.

There is NO part of me, that is not of the Gods!

To those who will, he is named by the Master ADTh BKYO (Pan the all father)
as ADGB DVD BL (Heart of the Beloved Lord). For that is where he
has found his new life, in the Holy service of he who proclaims:

AHYH DONYVThA ThHYM BRA KL YDVH ONG
I Am the Concealed Mysteries of The Abyss, The Well of All Joy and Delight!

Behold! these be grave mysteries; for there are also of my friends
who be hermits. Now think not to find them in the forest or on the
mountain; but in beds of purple, caressed by magnificent beasts of
women with large limbs, and fire and light in their eyes, and masses
of flaming hair about them; there shall ye find them. Ye shall see
them at rule, at victorious armies, at all the joy; and there shall
be in them a joy a million times greater than this. Beware lest any
force another, King against King! Love one another with burning hearts;
on the low men trample in the fierce lust of your pride, in the day
of your wrath.

ADGB DVD BL will be fulfilling two very important duties for his Lord ADTh BKYO,
the role of scribe and priest, and that of guardian. He is given the duty of
maintaining the Host's vessel in this mortal realm when the Host must be away
from this realm. As scribe, he will be responsible for recording and spreading
the word of ADTh BKYO to all who will listen.

Thou who art I, beyond all I am,
Who hast no nature and no name,
Who art, when all but thou are gone,
Thou, centre and secret of the Sun,
Thou, hidden spring of all things known
And unknown, Thou aloof, alone,
Thou, the true fire within the reed
Brooding and breeding, source and seed
Of life, love, liberty, and light,
Thou beyond speech and beyond sight,
Thee I invoke, my faint fresh fire
Kindling as mine intents aspire.
Thee I invoke, abiding one,
Thee, centre and secret of the Sun,
And that most holy mystery
Of which the vehicle am I.

When the Host decides the timing is right, ADGB DVD BL will leave the
vessel, and ADTh BKYO will be among us to spread Joy and Delight to all those
who are willing to accept. As fortold and promised by him, he will appear
at the holy gatherings of Our Haven when all signs are present to make
it possible for ADGB DVD BL to make the pilgrrmige to this most sacred and
holy of places.

For those with the interest, the writings and teachings of ADTh BKYO as dictated
via divine inspiration to ADGB DVD BL will be available to read in The Book of Concealed Mysteries

Written this day of ressurection by ADTh BKYO through the hand of ADGB DVD BL.

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law,
Love is the law, love under will.

Call me Maurice

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 04:35:52 GMT

Okay, so all the votes are in, and after a close call, the theme song has finally been chosen. I had to disqualify "little teapot" because I am most definately not short and stout, and although it was a good song, and written explicitly about me, Justin Timberlakes song "Sexyback" was sadly not chosen. It did however run a close second.

In the end, had to go with teh classic Steve Miller "Joker". Now, the song is a bit off in areas, so I added comments to correct some of the problems, but I left the main song intact for all you purists out there.

Without further Adue, here we go.

Some people call me the space cowboy,yeah
Some call me the gangster of love
Some people call me Maurice
Cause I speak of the pompitus of love.

People talk about me, baby
Say I'm doin' you wrong, doin' you wrong
Well, don't you worry baby
Don't worry Cause I'm right here, right here, right here,
right here at home
(unless of course I am not, in which case, leave a messege, and I might get back to ya)

Cause I'm a picker
I'm a grinner
I'm a lover   (all day every day baby)
And I'm a sinner   (hehe, sin is fun, much more fun than being a goody, and with my OTO sisters, incest adds a whole new dimension)
I play my music in the sun.

I'm a joker
I'm a smoker
I'm a midnight toker    (why hold yourself to one time? all day is the word here)
I get my loving on the run Wooo Woooo

You're the cutest thing
That I ever did see
I really love your peaches   (hehe, he said peach)
Wanna shake your tree.

a Lovey-dovey, lovey-dovey, lovey-dovey all the time
Ooo-eee baby, I'll sure show you a good time

Post leave Musings.

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 02:15:15 GMT

Back in the desert. Weather is hot, life is as dangerous as before. Dont get me wrong, overall it is pretty safe here for me. But just how safe can it be sitting in a combat zone in a place that people dont want you there?

Had an absolutely wonderful time while on leave. Met some absolutely amazing people. Circumstances guided me to a place, that I was almost sure I didnt want to be. After I got there, I realised that is where I needed to be all along.

Its amazing how a 5 day period can change your outlook on life. 5 days and a book. And what a book. Suggested to me, by a woman..... Ohh what a woman. Mine heart doth ache and yearn for her touch, for but a minute of my site upon her brow. A smile from her lips directed at me.... Ah mi.

I met myself this past weekend. I can tell you that I was not happy with my attitude and my actions. So, he and I had a long talk. I said to myself, "Self, this is who I want to be, I am no longer that tired, scared little man, who hides who he is from the world." You know what happened next? I enjoyed myself. I smiled, and went on with the weekend. Now I look inward, and realise, all I needed was to take hold of what I wanted. To grab myself by the.... well no item of clothign that I had on thats for sure, and pull into the abyss.

What a lovely trip it was. I hope that everyone I met this year will be around next year. I would hate to miss any of them. And I hope if you didnt go, you will.

I will post more I think, wont promise because most of you know who I am alraedy, and will be surprised if you hear from me again before its time to plan my return. Until then, adue.